FR: "He's beginning to believe"

This month in March of 2010 marks my return to the seduction community some 3 years after I first discovered it. I started to learn the stuff after "loosing the girl of my dreams" in 2007 and I quickly made it work for me. I dated some really hot women, played the field and had some cool and unusual sexual interactions with those women. Then I got into a relationship and slowly forgot all the good stuff I learned.
After Sarah and I broke up, I went to a party with my closest bro Taylor. When we got there I remember feeling like I had no fuckin' clue on how to work a room anymore. "Dude" I said to Taylor, "I don't know how to do this. What fuckin' happened to me in the past year?" I spent the first half-hour walking around like an AFC and wondering if it had been worth it to let the skills I developed go by the wayside. Unfortunately, "pick up" is not like riding a bicycle, its more like working out. If you haven't hit the gym in a while, you might have to start at the at a lower weight or rep til you get back to superstar status.
Standing there at the party, I remembered what my Charisma Arts (Juggler Method) Boot Camp instructor had told me as the summation of all he was trying to convey on that weekend that now seemed so far away. "D" he said, "It's all about 'the vibe'. The material doesn't matter. If you develop and convey the right vibe, you'll naturally attract women". A couple weeks following boot camp I called him up to tell him I had gotten "the vibe". From there I made up my own method as I strung together different lines and techniques from the various gurus out there and came up with new stuff based on basic seduction principals. I relied mostly on my good looks and ability to generate "the vibe". I never got really good at any one method because my results were blowing up my previous paradigm. I didn't care about the ones I didn't get, because what I was getting was some really cool, fun, hot women into my bed.
So there, at this dance party with about 50 other people from my grad school, I threw off my approach anxiety and with no technique whatsoever and just emanating pure "vibe", I went up and took the hottest girl in the room by the hand. Anna, the belly dancer who had been hired as the entertainment for earlier in the evening, was the sexual fantasy of all the guys in our social circle and most of the women too. She was ecstatic when I looked deep into her eyes and told her with conviction "We are going to own the dance floor in the next 10 minutes". Sure enough we were soon under the spotlight together totally in our own world with all eyes on us as we tore up the dance floor. As I was leaving the party she asked me if I would join her the following night for dinner at our friend Evan's restaurant. The next night she was in my bed and a week later we took a road trip up the coast together. We hung out off and on over the next several months. We had some great times but it didn't last. When I realized I was in falling in love with her and she with me and I tried to "Relationship close" her, I went about it in all the wrong ways and essentially got blown out. The rules of the Game apply all the way into relationships. If you have found a "10" through and through (inside and out) and you want to take it to that level and keep it there, you never stop playing the Game. If you want some insight into what I'm talking about, then read David Deida's "The Way of the Superior Man".
Now, I have returned to the PUA world at the bottom floor. I am starting from square 1. I bought Neil Strauss' "The Rules of the Game" and am doing his 30 day challenge. Some of the stuff feels simplistic and I want it to move faster. I know however that it will be a matter of days now before I am kiss closing. I have been taking the opportunity of moving slowly to make approaches on hotter women. When I was practicing this stuff the first time around, I would be scarred to try out new techniques on really hot girls. Not the case anymore. I have been integrating some of Hypnotica's stuff too and find it helps a lot with approach anxiety. On his suggestion I spent 3 hours at the strip club today, stage-side, staring into the eyes of the dancers in order to learn how to look deep into a woman's eyes and not get caught up in how hot she is. Each day brings new excitement as I remember what it was like to understand how this stuff works. As "the vibe" builds, hot women are starting to approach/ open me. Pretty fuckin' cool. The great thing is though, that I get the advantage of having three more years of life experience behind me this time. I don't know why, but I just seem to get it more now.
There is a scene in the Matrix where Neo stops running from Agent Smith and turns toward him to fight him. Trinity asks"What's he doing?" Morpheus simply replies "He's beginning to believe." There are times in life when the fabric of the illusions we have weaved begins to grow thin. The world as we previously perceived it no longer exists and that which we thought we should fear or be powerless over, just slips away. My friends, I am beginning to believe. I look forward to the continuing unfoldment, the dissolving of the illusion, the return of the Champ. I ask all out there to hold me accountable to continue to raise the bar until my deepest desires and wildest dreams have been fulfilled!
Stay tuned for more to come.

Cheers,
D$