Quicksilver and Complications: Loveur This Ones for Your Awsome Response

a report by littlemissillum.... (view littlemissilluminated's blog)December 18, 20094 comments

Recently i had a boyfriend, and we lasted a 'solid week' before i broke up with him, or you could say we agreed to it. Long story short, circumstances made him unable to have a girlfriend.

On our first date, he gave me his letterman. This was borderline creepy, but extremely sweet cause i figured his intentions were good. And on my initial attempt to refuse accepting something so sentimental, he convinced me that he wouldn't be able to wear it anyway cause he is going to another school (note: the school he is transferring to is a rival of mine).

Furthermore, long story short his father decided to give him trouble with our relationship. Mind you that initially, his father was extremely enthusiastic and very happy to know that Jordan had found such a great girl. However, he too turned to liquid at the officially "asking out" of the whole event and decided that his support no longer stood.

Summed up, Jordan initially begged me to stay with him, which is NOT a weak thing at all to do. You fight for what you care about, even if it is a girl. At the end of our staggering week i asked him if he'd be okayy with us temporarily ending our relationship due to circumstances. He agreed, happily ever after right? No.

Last night we had a very bad discussion his father is still refusing him allowed to date me,and it just about broke my heart. He kept saying how he felt horrible and how i was making it worse. In response, i announced to him that he had officially destroyed me, and then told him to go to hell. After that, i insisted we see each other one last time, so that i can give him his shit back. Because it sure as hell isn't staying with me. But of course, he refused, and insisted that i keep the jacket, and the never delivered gift.

On another sour note -in reference to the gift (above)-, i bought him a rosary as an early birthday present before we broke up (cause i figured we might last, considering its been my first official relationship in almost three long years). On our second, and last, date he insisted he wanted a rosary tatooed around his neck and down his chest. I imediately protested and after ten good minutes of winning he finally promised me he'd at least wait to get it. And for his understanding behavior, lo and behold the rosary!

So here i find myself, just about putting a knife through the back of his letterman. Violent? I know, but any for of catharsis will do right? What i want to know is does anybody think hes genuine? Can anybody even begin to explain to me what he is thinking?

Hearts of Stone
littlemiss

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Fri, 12/18/2009 - 18:05

Loveur says:

A lot of guys suck a lot at

A lot of guys suck a lot at expressing emotions; it is easier to show it through what we do and think about than to actually say it. Remember: our brain has one big area that deals with the ability to talk and convey ideas, and it works great with logical and factual stuff, but you guys have like 7 smaller ones, some deeply embedded in the parts where emotions arise. That, we don't have.

So the guy I think has classic father-control challenges and that's probably keeping him down on his growth as a man. Some dads clamp down hard when they think they are losing control of a growing child (esp Look up this term . a guy), but that's usually conflicting to the son because he's usually grown to be the way that he is... because he learned his values and how to behave from his parents ! So on one hand he is ready to move and grow and do stuff, on the other he is punished for doing exactly what he was raised to do. The gap between dreams and the freedom to act on them is causing stress, and that's a major ego depressant when all of your engines want to speed up and go. And that's happening just when he needs to win new trophies in life and needs the freedom to do it. So he probably does stupid impulsive rage stuff when he is not down and blue. He probably has a hard time explaining that (or something like that) to begin with to himself, so it'll be nearly impossible for him to figure out his emotions (beyond primary stuff like rage and sadness) AND explain it in a way that he thinks a chick would need to hear it to understand (which, until you get it, feels like pushing rope through a maze until you find the exit).