This Time I Last Long Enough To Start Worrying Me

As I wrote elsewhere, although I've been picked up by a few ladies in the past, I've never fucked a girl I pursued myself. I've never fucked a single girl more than 3 times I think, and all my experiences were embarrassing or downright catastrophic ... usually with me ending up pouting and unable / unwilling to speak to the girl.

Tonight I had my first lay in years. Though it wasn't a difficult one, since I knew her from many years before, I'm very happy because it gave me the proof-of-concept that some of the mental reframing I went through actually works. This completely changed both my behavior and who I am subconsciously, not just how I act. The most important reframing part, though, was not to be nervous in bed, as that had ruined pretty much all my sexual encounters in the past. But now this is totally solved !

So I told her to come over for salsa practice. Even my attitude changed, as instead of nervously preparing my place, I just went to sleep and told her to call me when she got to the subway on the way to my place.

I then went to get her from the subway. We were playful already with kino, she was climbing on my back and we were teasing each other.

At my place, unlike my previous self, I didn't go straight to the computer to begin our salsa training. We just had a good time talking for a bit. She tried lifting me but couldn't. I lifted her and almost drove her into the ceiling. I'm clumsy.

Eventually we put on music and dance to songs. Then I get the camera and we start filming ourselves on Pantera Mambo, and we keep doing some playful stuff, with me grabbing her hips to move her to the music at some point.

The camera was sitting on a bunch of pillows and a box, so I grab a pillow and smack her across the head. We fight a bit, wrestle, I take her down with a body slam (just kidding, I tripped her gently). I tickle her a bit, but I don't want to use the same strategy I had used years ago because I cock blocked myself afterward and it would feel weird to do the same thing again.

So I flip her on her stomach and sit on her ass. She asks me what I am doing, and I give her a massage. Then I lay next to her and kiss her.

I see that she doesn't have the same tension that the virgin girl I know has, where she tries to preemptively protect her parts, so I go for her breasts. She doesn't mind. Before escalating further, I pick her up and carry her to my room, hitting her knee on the door frame and hurting her. I complain that she dented my wall and then lift her again and carry her to my bed.

Through the night, I kept remembering things I had read here or in books, so it was helpful to make up for lack of experience. I also had advice from a few friends that I kept in mind in case she gave me that dead starfish thing where she plays dead during sex, and also to keep this sexual only, not conveying any relationship BS.

Mostly, she was surprisingly dry even though I went down on her for a while, but a friend had told me not to expect her to come if she has sex / abuse issues. So I didn't stress it or put pressure on her. Although a part of me wanted to ask her if she enjoyed it, I kept my mouth shut.

Anyway, I end up fucking her and come in like 2 minutes hahaha - that's what happens the first time you no longer have any nervousness preventing you from feeling pleasure. It could have been embarrassing, but I remembered what I read about what an alpha does for shit tests or other situations: he just doesn't react. So, I go back down on her while removing my condom without saying a word, though my self-deprecating AFC self tried real hard to crack a joke like, “Haha I just came in like two minutes hahaha !” But I kept him on a leash. Also, I didn't feel much embarrassment thanks to my reframing ... I just didn't care.

After awhile I stop, and she cuddles up to me for a few min. Once I feel confident I can get hard again, I go down on her first and then fuck her. This time I last long enough to start worrying me, but it actually went well, and was way more enjoyable this time.

Then we have a discussion on sex and fetishes. She tells me she likes bondage. For fun, I lead her to the other room and we dance a salsa completely naked. Then I put a bachata on, but it was kinda lame. Still, I danced for a minute, then I dragged her to my room again because I had an idea. I open my drawer and get a long white sock to tie her wrists. There was another girl's bra in there and she saw it haha. She probably thought I just wore it myself, though.

I tie her wrists behind her back and then play with her a bit and spank her, and go down on her again.

She goes home and I go to the corner store to buy Haggen Daaz cookie crumb ice cream to celebrate my ascension to manhood.